Lately, a lot of people have been asking what has happened to me. They comment how much I’ve changed since a year ago. I can’t say that I have a specific answer, other than there is a fresh burning hunger and desire for Jesus in my heart. I can point it back to one journal entry, that I refer to as my breaking point. When I finally put down in words things I’d been sensing for a while.
September 27, 2015
“I am not satisfied just singing songs, good songs even, or listening to “nice” messages. This isn’t life-giving. I long for the fire of God to cleanse our hearts and minds and for the glory of God to consume us! A holy fire! A holy passion! Rivers of living water! Life-giving, life-changing, freedom-bearing, healing waters. Miracles! A stirring up of PASSION FOR THE LORD, HIS WAYS! HIS NATURE! HIS CHARACTER! A leaving behind of this world. Bringing Heaven to Earth. Come Lord! Change us! Change me! Light me on fire and let me burn up for You! Help me know You more and be a witness to many. There is a breaking in my heart. I can’t do “normal” church anymore – I want your normal Jesus! Holy Spirit fall, move, and pour out wave upon wave.”
That is my explanation for what has happened to me. I’m not satisfied until I see a truly normal expression of Christianity being manifested around me. And I desire to see people awakened in their spirits to the enormity of the Father, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.